RSS

Do You Know What Day It Is?

 

May we all get lucky today 😀

Advertisements
 
Leave a comment

Posted by on October 8, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Hmmmm………

………I don’t know.

 

 

 

 

 

Do you think Marilyn was spanked??

 
1 Comment

Posted by on October 7, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Something Tells Me……..

 

 

 

 

Anyone else ever get this feeling???

 

 

 
6 Comments

Posted by on September 29, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Down and Disheartened

Today I am sad.  Feeling disheartened, feeling let down.

As some of you may know from reading my earlier posts, Alex and I have a lot going on right now.  A home addition and renovation, 3 school-age special-needs children who need constant supervision and management, and Alex’s job that is very physically demanding.  He has to get up at 3:15 am, and it’s taking a toll on him.  He’s seriously considering doing something else — possibly going into business for himself; we’ve discussed the possibility of starting a business together.  I’m already a stay-at-home mom, so I’m already here to help.

Even with all that we have going on, this is not the reason for my present state.  The reason for it is that Alex feels he can’t keep up with all that Dd requires right now.  He believes in it as much as I do (or so he tells me), and he really doesn’t want to let me down, but he feels he just can’t keep up.  Granted, we have workers here Monday – Friday from 7:30 am – 4:30 pm, which makes doing maintenance spankings when Alex gets home from work a thing of the past (He gets home while the kids are still in school, so that’s typically when we did maintenance).  Right now our bedroom is smack dab in the middle of the kids’ two bedrooms, so you know where I’m going with this.

Of course, I feel we just need to be creative and that other possibilities exist.  We could go into the garage early on a weekend morning before the kids wake up — we could even go out there at night after they’re in bed.  We have used the garage before for discipline spankings when the kids were home, so it wouldn’t be a new thing.

The thing is, Alex has been very inconsistent over the past several weeks.  He’s also been rather passive — choosing to let things slide and let me get away with things he wouldn’t have when Dd was going well.

I found that if I wasn’t the one bringing up maintenance spankings and asking about them, they didn’t happen.  We talked about it.  I said I understand his feeling overwhelmed with everything but that I feel it is a shame that we, and our relationship, have to take a hit.

He hates to upset me or let me down, and I know he wanted me to tell him it was ok with me that we take a break from this until the house is done (projected date of completion — possibly by Halloween).  I told him I wasn’t angry with him but I didn’t have to feel bad about feeling disappointed and let down.  He said he’d like to work his way back into it when everything is done here.   I said something like:

“Well, maybe.  But that doesn’t necessarily mean that I’ll want to at that point.”

Hmmm……..what was that about?  Was I trying to take control?  All I know is, I feel like he is not doing his job as HOH — and I hate how that makes me feel.  So just don’t think I’ll be waiting at the gate for you to decide when you want to play again, Buddy.  I can’t predict what will happen over the next several weeks — you think I’ll just jump right back into submissive mode when you finally decide you’re ready to be dominant again?  I will not be waiting with bated breath.

OK, I’m angry, too.  Add that to the list.

So we’ve talked about it, and I still don’t like it.  So I’ve decided to retreat a bit myself — detach a bit emotionally from him.  It’s easier for me this way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
5 Comments

Posted by on September 17, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Over His Knee With No Clothes – A Parody

To the tune of  “Horse With No Name”

 

Here’s the original version by America…………

 

 

 

And here’s the karaoke version to sing with the new version………..

 

 

 

 

On the first part of the journey

 

I was lookin’ at all the tools

 

There were belts and straps and loops and things



There were paddles and crops and canes

The first thing I met was my husband’s hand

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And the chair with no arms

The room was hot, and the walls were bare

But the air was full of sound

 


 

I been through a spankin’ over his knee with no clothes

Felt embarrassed to be out of those

In the subspace you can’t remember your name

‘Cause your man is always ready to give you more pain

 

La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la
La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la

 

After 10 swats with the wooden spoon

My ass began to turn red

After 30 lashes with the leather belt

I was thinkin’ I’d rather be dead

And the lecture he gave to his errant wife

Made me sad to think he was mad

You see I been through a spankin’ over his knee with no clothes

Felt embarrassed to be out of those

In the subspace you can’t remember your name

‘Cause your ass is on fire and you’re feelin’ ashamed

 

La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la
La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la

 

After a hundred strokes with the blasted cane

There was no fight left in me


 

 

 

 

There were belts and straps and loops and things

There were paddles and crops and canes

The spankin’ is a method that yields good results

to both spanker and spankee

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

‘Neath my rebellion lies a submissive heart

That I long for him to see

 

You see I been through a spankin’ over his knee with no clothes

Felt embarrassed to be out of those

In the subspace you can’t remember your name

‘Cause your ass is on fire and you’re feelin’  ashamed

 

La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la
La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la
La la, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la

 
4 Comments

Posted by on September 15, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Happy Friday, Everyone!

 

 

 

 

 
3 Comments

Posted by on September 2, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

In Search of My Submission……….Part II

Bound and determined, shovel in hand, I began digging. It wasn’t long before I uncovered (more than) a few things. Some were sprouting right through the surface of the ground, although their roots were entrenched far below.

Pride

Vulnerability

Fear

Anxiety

Shame

Doubt

Insecurity

Pain

Sorrow

I recognized these long-time companions right away.

I kept shoveling and soon discovered I couldn’t go any further. There was heavy rock and debris now covering the dirt.   A bigger and better piece of equipment was in order.

When it was done, the rest became visible. I picked them up and cleared away the dirt. I smiled, tears forming in my eyes.

Trust

Innocence

Joy

Wonder

Delight

Security

I’m learning that it’s not necessarily the absence of our most unpleasant emotions or thoughts that will bring about the changes we need to make, but rather our choice in what we will do when we encounter them. Some of them are there to help us. If I feel fear, I can choose to succumb to it or move forward in spite of it. Without it, I could too easily make some foolish and even dangerous decisions for not only myself, but my children, as well.  Without sorrow, we wouldn’t know true joy. Without vulnerability, we can’t get close to people or let them get close to us (where would that leave us with our spouses?  I think we all know too well). Without pain, there is little growth. Without doubt, we may never learn discernment. Without pride, we won’t know true humility.  This could easily lead to arrogance and narcissisum.


The exception, I believe, is shame. Shame can be so debilitating. Its counterpart, however — guilt — is necessary when we’ve done something wrong or we’d all run amok doing whatever we wanted without regard for anyone else and that would only lead to destruction.

I need to see the truth. To find the balance. Sometimes (OK, often) I need to apply logic to the situation and not allow my emotions to dictate my behavior. And sometimes I need to allow emotion to break through some hard and fast “logic” that is keeping me stuck — rendering me immovable.

I believe that it is the combination of all of these things in us that makes us who we are.  If we examine ourselves closely, we will learn what our strengths and weaknesses are.  We may see the hurdles and blockages.  Well, most of them, maybe.  Sometimes we need others (like our loving HOHs) to help us identify our blindspots.  Lucky for us, they’re also willing to help us overcome the things that are not serving us (or them) well.

I think that if I can strive for this, I will be able to find my submission.  At least it’s a lot closer to the surface now.

 
6 Comments

Posted by on September 1, 2011 in Uncategorized